Life, Love & Positive Vibes

Welcome! Here's the follow-up to the podcast I posted on the 26th Jan which covers my personal experiences living with BPD.  If you haven't heard it yet then take a listen:  Selena · BPD P odcast 1 in 4  people will experience a  mental health   problem of some kind  each year in  England   If you are having suicidal thoughts  and feel you may act upon them or  you have seriously harmed yourself  then dial  999 If you need someone to talk to: Samaritans Mind Help for those living with BPD: Support - Mind Treatment -Mind BPD Overview - NHS How to help someone with BPD: Helping Someone with BPD - Mind Care & Support Options - NHS

Welcome! So I’ve been struggling with sleep the last week. It sometimes feels like a never-ending battle although I know it will pass. I have been keeping as busy as possible during the day, however, when darkness falls I have started to become almost fearful of what lies ahead. Practises of meditation and listening to Headspace podcasts help a little at the moment but I will keep on keeping on. So many racing thoughts but the one playing on repeat is that of utter despair. How I’ve felt quite recently. And the consequences of my rapid decline. Then the overwhelming guilt, shame, etc.  Just over a week ago my world began to feel very small, extremely lonely, and incredibly dark. A plethora of uncertainties, anxiety, and stressful situations was enough to just topple me. My mind could not take anymore.  Stupidly, I turned to alcohol to numb myself. To forget. To just be able to pass out and sleep.  The evening didn’t really turn out the way I planned.  The breaking po...